CUT YOURSELF SOME SLACK!

The importance of self-compassion

I recently read a quote that resonated with me. It went, “There is no such thing as a perfect parent. The only requirement is to be one.” I smiled as I read it, remembering how I was when I was a new parent, caring for the first child in my care.

Every night I would set out his ironed clothes for the next day, polish his little leather shoes, and make sure the play area and house were spotless. I took pride in having a clean, nearly “perfect” home, and in having my oldest look his very best.

When number two came around, I didn’t keep up quite as well, but let’s say the clothes were ironed every other day, and the shoes polished not as often.

With number three, I still tried to keep some semblance of order, and the kids still looked neat and clean, but perfection went out the door. I don’t think I have to tell you what happened when numbers four, five, and six arrived.

Fast forward some twenty years, when I started caring for my 6-month old grandson, Logan. I tried my best to revive those days of perfection, and have things in tip-top shape. However, Logan was a handful, as they say, more so than any of my other children had ever been. I didn’t know then, but learned later that his hyper-activity and frequent crying were due to autism, SPD, and borderline ADHD, which was diagnosed officially when he was three.

It took me some time to digest the news of his “disability”, but once I learned more about autism and the importance of early intervention, my tendency for perfection kicked in once again. I was determined to do the very best for him, and tried to follow every instruction from his teachers and therapists to a T. Additionally, I read whatever book, blog, or article I could get my hands on, and tried to participate in any social activities the best I could as well.

After a while, it became obvious that I was not going to be able to keep up, physically and emotionally, with all the demands that come with caring for a child with autism. I was stretched to the limit, and something had to give.

I was fortunate to have met an amazing parent advocate, who became a dear friend in the process. She, after I cried on her shoulder a few times, recognized the problem. Next to having the sole care of my grandson and having to keep up with my on-line editing work, the pressures of managing school meetings and IEPs to find solutions to numerous incidents, doctor’s and dentist appointments, and the need  to work around other family related issues, were getting to me. Her advice? In short, “Cut yourself some slack!”

I knew she was right, but my circumstances hardly afforded it. Funds were tight, and I didn’t really have anyone to help or give me a break from time-to-time. Still, I knew I needed it—now!

When I thought about it more, I realized I needed a mindset change first.  In my desire to do everything so perfectly, and give my grandson the very best at every opportunity, I was over-extending myself. I had to come to grips with the fact that even if I had to skip an activity and do something simpler, like putting my feet up and sit in the back yard with a cup of tea while my grandson chased butterflies and collected bugs, was not going to hurt him. In fact, it did both of us a world of good.

I also started attending a small community church in our neighborhood that had a supervised playroom where Logan could hang out for an hour or two while I attended the service. I had been hesitant about doing this, as I was not sure how the staff would be able to handle Logan along with the other children. I was pleasantly surprised at how helpful they were, and even if they didn’t handle every situation “perfectly” or the way I would, it was a good opportunity for my grandson to play with other children, and for me to get a break and make new friends.

One of the key things that helped me find a better balance in taking care of my grandson and taking care of myself was to learn to ask for help and accept it when it was offered. I had always felt bad to ask others to take care of my grandson, and often declined offers that would have afforded me a break. Besides not wanting to burden others, it took me awhile to realize that it also had to do with trusting others with him. I raised him and knew him in-and-out, and I worried that others might not recognize some of the things that led to meltdowns, or if he had one, would know how to bring him out of it. I loved him so much, and didn’t want him to have to go through anything that might be difficult for him, but in being so protective, I realized I was actually robbing him of some great teaching moments—and robbing myself of much needed rest.

Learning to cut myself some slack has been an ongoing process—and I am still learning.

My situation changed when my grandson moved back in with his dad and his wife-to-be in the summer of 2012. It was an adjustment for both of us, but I am happy to say that things have worked out wonderfully. I now have more time for myself, though I am still involved in Logan’s care on a regular basis.

It was not easy to let go at first, and accept that my role as primary caregiver had changed, but it has been good for me. It made it possible for me to start taking care of myself better, and I am happy to tell you that I finally took the plunge and that I took the first real vacation in nearly seven years in 2013! I’m cutting myself some slack!

 

Some Simple, Inexpensive Ideas for Taking Care of Yourself

  • Incorporate activities that you enjoy, even when you don’t really feel like it. Listen to music, work in the garden, engage in a hobby—whatever it is that you enjoy.
  • Pamper yourself. Take a warm bath and light candles. Read a nice book, or go out for dinner once in awhile with family or a close friend.
  • Eat balanced meals to take care of your body. Avoid fast foods as much as possible.
  • Find time to exercise, even if it’s a short walk every day. I used to take a “nature walk” with my grandson almost every day, weather permitting.
  • Do the best you can to sleep at least 7 hours a night.
  • Laughter really is the best medicine. Buy a light-hearted book or rent a comedy. Whenever you can, try to find some humor in everyday situations.
  • Keep a journal. Write down your thoughts and feelings. This helps provide perspective on your situation and serves as an important release for your emotions.
  • Arrange a telephone contact with a family member, a friend, advocate, or a volunteer so that someone calls regularly to be sure everything is all right. You can ask this person for help with contacting other family members, or let them know if you need anything.
  • Try to set a time for afternoons or evenings out, and ask a family member or friend to be a sitter.
  • Seek out friends and family to help you so that you can have some time away from the home. If it is difficult to leave, invite friends and family over to visit with you. Share some tea or coffee. It is important that you interact with others.
  • Last, but certainly not least, give yourself permission to rest and to do things that you enjoy on a daily basis. You will be a better parent or caregiver for it.

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